In the following message he/she explained that he/she is in a tough situation and that he/she is/was considering suicide.
After I advised him/her to first of all contact some professionals about the suicide issue, I also gave him/her some self forgiveness statements which, if applied, will give strength and resolve for one to change the situation = To give oneself the gift that is Life!
The following is his/her message:
"You see, I am I drain on my family and on society, there is no nice way of saying it. I am coming to a proverbial fork in the road very soon. I am either going to cost my family and friends a tremendous amount of resources and pain without much hope of repayment, or I am going to commit suicide. I haven't decided yet. Moreover, there is no precedent for improvement. I cannot remember the last time I was happy (completely honest here, not an exaggeration), nor do I remember things getting better than they were before. These things may be beside the point, but it may not, just trying to give you as much context as I can.
As for regret, I am unwilling to give you too many specifics other than I have done some truly terrible things. Some of these things were very bad, but some were not all that bad, they simply embarrassing or just the wrong way to go about things at the time, and I wish I had done things a different way. Some of these things are major, and some are minor, but I can't seem to forgive myself for any of them. I can't forgive myself for my worthlessness nor helplessness nor hopelessness. I can't forgive myself for the pain I have inflicted onto myself and others."
The following is the self forgiveness and self corrective statements that were part of the message I sent him/her:
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"I am I drain on my family and on society, there is no nice way of saying it"
I forgive myself I have accepted and allowed myself to be hard on myself and believe that I am of no worth because I am a drain on my family and on society.
I forgive myself I haven't accepted and allowed myself to consider change myself to stop being a drain on my family and on society.
I forgive myself I haven't accepted and allowed myself to be grateful for having my family (and society) supporting me.
I forgive myself I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize that I am worthy of life and that is why I have my family support -- because they recognize that I am worth it regardless of what I have done.
I forgive myself I have accepted and allowed myself to have a low self esteem and within it believe that I am not worthy of life instead of realizing that these are JUST thoughts that happen in my mind that are telling "I am not worth it" and these thoughts are not in fact real -- I can change them and within it change myself.
"I am coming to a proverbial fork in the road very soon. I am either going to cost my family and friends a tremendous amount of resources and pain without much hope of repayment, or I am going to commit suicide."
I forgive myself I have accepted and allowed myself believe that the pain I might case my family by staying alive is greater than the pain I will cause them if I kill myself.
I forgive myself I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that suicide is an option.
I forgive myself I haven't accepted and allowed myself to value my life by remaining alive and do what I must do to get myself (and my family) out of this situation.
I forgive myself I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize that "suicide" is an idea/though that exists within my mind and thatI believe it to be a solution to my situation instead of realizing that the only thing it will do is take me out of this physical reality but I will have to still face myself in the hereafter.
I forgive myself I haven't accepted and allowed myself to love myself.
I forgive myself I haven't accepted and allowed myself to still have hope in myself.
I forgive myself I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize that I am diminishing myself and believing myself to be less than who I really am by believing that I cannot let go of the past and face myself here and change myself and do what must be done to take myself and my family from this situation of pain.
I forgive myself I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize that together with my family it will be easier to get over the troublesome situation that I (and my family) find myself (ourselves) in.
I forgive myself I haven't accepted and allowed myself to be grateful to my family and friends to have them by my side in this tough situation.
I forgive myself I haven't accepted and allowed myself to show gratitude and appreciation to the support my family and friends are giving me by keeping on "fighting back" and by having the will and determination to live and do what I must do get myself out of this situation I find myself in.
"Moreover, there is no precedent for improvement. I cannot remember the last time I was happy (completely honest here, not an exaggeration), nor do I remember things getting better than they were before."
I forgive myself I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that "there is no precedent to improvement" instead of realizing that this is my mind trying to fuck with me.
I forgive myself I haven't accepted and allowed myself to accept the situation I find myself in and stand up from it and start to be the directive principle of my life.
I forgive myself I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that things will not change.
I forgive myself I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize that I am the one responsible for both my happiness and sadness, and therefore I am the one who must move and direct myself to change myself and to experience what I want.
I forgive myself I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize that for as long as I have food, shelter and health care -- all the psychological suffering is always imposed by myself through the bullshit that exists within my mind as the beliefs I have about myself and the world.
I forgive myself I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I cannot forgive myself and find a way to live --- I am forgiving myself right here and right now, I am already starting to change.
"I have done some truly terrible things. Some of these things were very bad, but some were not all that bad, they simply embarrassing or just the wrong way to go about things at the time, and I wish I had done things a different way."
I forgive myself I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize that what I have done is done and I cannot change it.
I forgive myself I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize that the past cannot be changed, but I can change myself here and now and thus I can change my future.
I forgive myself I have accepted and allowed myself to be hard on myself for the things I have done and believe that such things define me and believe that I must suffer because of those things I have done.
I forgive myself I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize that it was my mind through its thoughts feelings and emotions that lead me to do what I did and it is also the mind with its thoughts and emotions and feelings (energetic load) that is trapping me in this cycle of self punishment and self misery.
I forgive myself I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that what I have done was embarrassing instead of realizing that "embarrassing" is an idea/belief/opinion that changes according to person/personality and/or culture/tradition and as such it is not real in fact.
I forgive myself I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize that the embarrassing things that I have done are only embarrassing in my own eyes because of what I believe to be acceptable.
I forgive myself I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize that I cannot change the "wrong" and "bad" things that I did but I can let it go, accept what I have done and move on and make sure that I do not do these "bad" and "wrong" things again.
I forgive myself I have accepted and allowed myself to "wish to have done things differently" in the past instead of focussing on doing things differently right here and right now in order to be satisfied and contempt with myself to finally experience myself as Life as that which I truly am -- LIFE! I am alive!
"Some of these things are major, and some are minor, but I can't seem to forgive myself for any of them. I can't forgive myself for my worthlessness nor helplessness nor hopelessness. I can't forgive myself for the pain I have inflicted onto myself and others."
I forgive myself I have accepted and allowed myself to be hard on myself because of the things I have done.
I forgive myself I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I cannot forgive myself for the "bad" and "wrong" things I have done regardless of them being "major" or "minor" things instead of realizing that I am doing it right now and within this forgiveness I am showing to myself that I am willing and capable of changing.
I forgive myself I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am not of any worth and that I do not have the right to live and thus instead of realizing that I am still here breathing, and therefore I am still worthy of life and I still have a change to change myself and become someone that I am satisfied and happy with.
I forgive myself I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that this helplessness that I experience is real instead of realizing that it is in fact my mind showing to me what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become, and therefore, now that I see it, I can change myself.
I forgive myself I have accepted and allowed myself to have lost all hope in myself instead of realizing that this perceived "loss of hope" only exists within my mind --- by body is still alive and it is still supporting me, it is still keeping me alive, and through this breath I am alive and I can change myself.
I forgive myself I have accepted and allowed myself to want other to forgive me instead of realizing that I cannot force them to forgive me --- but I can forgive myself for what I have done to them, and I can apologize. I forgive myself I have accepted and allowed myself to want others to forgive me instead of realizing that want I want is to forgive myself for what I have done.
I forgive myself I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize that I cannot change others but I can change myself.
I forgive myself to believe that I cannot forgive myself for the pain I have inflicted on myself instead of seeing and realizing that I am already forgiving myself and I can forgive myself.
Now I would like to give you some corrective statements that will give you a further strength to change and to let go of the past.
When and as I see myself thinking about committing suicide -- I stop. I breathe (here you will breathe deeply for a while). Within it I realize that this is in fact a thought from and of my mind attempting to impose its bullshit beliefs that "I am not worth it" onto MY BODY that is the one that is keeping me alive.
When and as I see myself thinking about the past and believing that I am not worthy of living -- I stop. I breathe. Within it I realize that what is done is done -- but I can change myself here and now to have the future I want.
When and as I see myself thinking about the embarrassing things I did and within it feel bad about myself -- I stop. I breathe. Within it I realize that "embarrassing" is a relative term. Embarrassing is subject to personality and to culture/tradition, and as such it is not real -- it is a mind trap to make me feel shit about myself and therefore I do not accept it (the mind) to fuck with me. Besides, what is done is done.
When and as I see myself believing that I cannot live with what I have done -- I stop. I breathe. Within it I realize that I DO CAN LIVE because here I am alive, breathing. Within it I realize that the past has passed and the future is determined by what I accept myself to be here and now, and therefore I change myself here and now to do what I must do -- love myself, give myself value, appreciate the support from my family and friends and LIVE LIFE!
When and as I see myself believing that "I will never be happy" -- I stop. I breathe. Within it I realize that this is my mind trying to fuck wit me -- Within it I realize that my sadness has existed because I accepted my mind to tell me that "I am shit" and that I am not worth it" and that "what I have done is fucked up" and therefore "I am also fucked up" and thus "I do not deserve to be happy". This is all mind bullshit and I do not accept it to control and/or dictate my life -- Who I am here and now.
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Suicide is never an option - because death is a certainty.
It is always a thought/emotion/feeling that leads one to commit suicide -- this in itself is the deception of and as the mind that controls us and that has made us slaves of our own perceived limitation.
This limitation as thought/emotion/feeling can be removed through self-forgiveness.
All thought/emotion/feeling is a form of suicide. Therefore, self forgiveness to transcend all the limitation of and as the mind is not an option - it is "a must!" because the death of the ego (thoughts/feelings/emotions - the mind consciousness system) is also a certainty.
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